Releasing Discordant Energy

We are layered beings. I am not simply Claire aged 35; every event that has created an emotion in me continues to play like a video over and over again, and unless I identify and release these stuck emotions, they will continue to impact my life as it is today. We probably all hold anger, grief, embarrassment and every other variation of emotion that we would rather not have rule our lives, and eventually this will have a negative physical impact creating weight problems, addictions and dis-ease. Unless we allow ourselves space to breath and clear.

I had read many books that told me to write a list of everyone who had ever upset me and to burn the list and the energies associated with the relationships. I am sure this has helped many people, and it is a good technique, however, it was never quite enough for me and I knew the energies weren't completely cleared. I had spoken my forgiveness to myself and these people and situations. I had affirmed that I didn't feel anger or irritation towards them and I was willing to let go and move on. However, some elements weren't quite cleared and I could never understand why this was so.

Recently I have begun to understand more and I would like to share this with you in the hope that you may be able to identify and use this technique.

The reason that energy remained stuck, here, was that I wasn't acknowledging the emotion I had experienced. It was almost as though I was ashamed that I had felt anger or frustration. I was embarrassed of some of my own actions and I had simply buried them as though they weren't there. I have been labelled by others as a calm, relaxed type of person, and I liked that. Anger, for instance, wasn't part of the image that I wanted to project, so I simply tried not to show it. But these emotions were there ... of course they were ... and they continued to impact me as the emotion multiplied each time I felt it and buried it.

I find this with many friends I meet who are on the spiritual path. They say that they have let something go, but I sense energetically the total opposite. As we verbalise something, the energy rises to the forefront of our solar plexus and we attract a situation to mirror these emotions. We can then choose to bury the feeling and deny that part of ourselves, or we can acknowledge it and let it go.

Of course, in meditation or contemplation, we can clear energies ourselves without the need for experiencing the pain of many situations, so why not give this technique a shot:

• Sit quietly and think of a situation or person and feel the emotions rise in your solar plexus. Experience the emotion(s) for a moment and identify what it is (or they are). Breathe into it ten or fifteen times.
• Think or say ' I feel (emotion) towards (situation/person)'
• When you are ready forgive yourself and the situation/people
• Feel the energies subside, and if you wish, then write this down on a piece of paper.
• Don't try and dig up too much at once. Perhaps you will immediately identify three or four situations or people that are currently impacting you and simply work with these. Don't sit for longer than necessary dragging up too much.
• If you have made a list, then burn it

If you take anything from this, let it be that you are human. In this society we are so conditioned to be perfect in public and are incredibly judgemental of each other as no one on Earth fits with this ideal. I still remember 'Little girls should be seen and not heard!' but it is my choice whether or not I let that become a part of my experience and carry it forward. It is ok to feel negative emotions, but we don't have to let them rule our lives. Some negative emotions are a form of protection, after all!